50, 278 words and no, it is not finished yet.
But holy crap, do I feel good now. Staying up until 3am last night was so worth it. <3
Too bad I can't post any more chapters for the moment. I need to get home to get the files since I'm too lazy to edit what is stored on Google Documents. It takes out all my paragraph spacing.
This story has caused me so much stree and tears over this last month. There are still parts I need to write - like The Middle. I need to talk to Nightwind about that though and I haven't had the opportunity to do so yet. I might be able to manage to iron out the issues I'm haivng with it myself but not until I rewrite the parts before it... Unless I go ahead and write it out the way it should be with all the things I've learned about the characters so far and then fix it so it fits in the edits? I could do that, I guess.
I've been so low over the last weekend though. I cried about 3 times on Saturday, partially because my boyfriend was being a dick and partially because I had thousands of words left to write, no way to motivate myself, no way to check exactly how much I had left and I was just generally in a crappy mood. All I wanted was to go home, talk to friends and my mother and eat lots and lots of chocolate. Lots of decent coffee would be a plus too. I'm so sick of tea right now.
I am so tempted to go back and start editing already but I think I need a break from the novelling for a day or two. My app for thewake_rp
isn't going to write itself. It's due by the 4th but I want to get it in before then because I'll be spending the weekend celebrating five long years with my boyfriend by then.
After that, though, I'm going to continue with the novel and then I'll do the edits. I've signed up to NaNoFiMo to give me a little more motivation for finishing the novel and not letting myself be completely taken over my RP again. It's fun but I have my ambitions too and I don't want RP to become everything. I almost forgot how much fun it is to work with my own characters (which does sort of tempt me to make a journal or two for several of my own little creations but it's probably best that I don't, at least not yet) and have my own plot and everything. Besides, I'm so goddamn close to finishing this story! It's an awesome feeling! Maybe I should work on the novel and do the app at the same time so I dn't lose this good feeling I have?
My novel may be absolute rubbish at the moment, but it's a first draft and it is a rushed NaNo novel but I still feel good about it all.