Venting

[sabulana]

It's been a while since I posted anything here. :/ And now I return in order to vent some stuff.

 

For the longest time, I’ve wanted to be a writer. Maybe not full time - I don’t think I’ll ever get to that point but still… Writing is what I want to do.

But then comes the problem ofwhatto write. At the moment, I have several projects I’m working on. Sort of.

First one is something I started way back in 2009 for NaNoWriMo. There have been a few things along the way preventing me from finishing it - like the computer breaking and I thought I lost it but then discovered a copy of my first draft saved online. Awesome. So I started working on it again and then got to part way through editing/rewriting chapter two and thought…

…Could I really get this published? I mean, the character and basic plotline were suggested to me by a friend and the character ishis. I just… took the idea and ran. I have no idea if he likes it or agrees with anytihng I’ve written because I haven’t shown him any of the latest version.

I could ask for permission to send it off when it’s complete and maybe he’ll say yes. In which case I then start panicking because this story, while being something I love and have had so much fun working on, is something I also get very insecure about because I don’t see a whole lot of stories about anthropomorphic animals. :| Redwall springs to mind, and Watership down but the rabbits are rabbits in that and not rabbits in a more humanoid form shooting each other.

No matter what, I am going to work on that story though. I just… would prefer to work on something I feel more confident about getting published.

This brings me to project number two. This one stars mostly human characters but also vampires, werewolves, faeries and a talking cat. It’s about a teenage girl finding out about some family destiny type thing and the stress it puts on her family while she tries to cope with it. Her mother is dead against her having anything to do with it but at the same time, doesn’t want to step up and do her part either. This is also fun to work on. I have ideas for several story arcs too and I’m not sure which ones will make it into this book. I figure it might end up being part of a series.

And then there is project number three, which I have tentatively named Nyctophobia. It’s actually a series of short stories centred around the theme of darkness. I’ve got a bunch of ideas jotted down and some I’ve begun fleshing out.It’s fun and basically I’m just using it as an excuse to write gory and weird stuff.

Now, I like all these ideas. I want to work on them all. But if I try to work on them all at the same time, I will overload myself and give up on all of them. I just can’t pick which one to work on first. Should I work on short stories and maybe find a magazine or something that will print them? Try to get some kind of portfolio or something idk - people keep advising me to send things to magazines but I have no idea what magazines would accept the kind of weird things I like writing. Or I could work on one of the novel-length stories and try to get those published. But which one? Anthro animals in a sci-fi/fantasy setting or supernatural family business? I honestly don’t know which ones to pick but I feel like I have to make a choice now if I’m going to get anywhere later. And I don’t know who to ask for advice.